Peter Lavender: Music

• MP3 short clip, hi-fi play (broadband)

Only myself to blame
I drown in a sea of shame
Fighting the urge to want to emerge again
And how did I sink so low
How do I stop the flow
Tears that I cry sting as they dry on my face

I thought for a moment I’d finally found
The things I’d been waiting to feel
But time didn’t waste any time
Revealing what was and wasn’t real.

A letter I should have mailed
A letter that would have failed
The damage was done the day we’d begun the lie.
And whether or not it’s true
Whether or not you knew
Black white or gray all I had to say was no

Still I thought for a moment I’d finally found
The things I’d been waiting to feel
But time didn’t waste a any time
Revealing what was and wasn’t real.

I want to believe in time
The punishment and the crime
Will add up to none and I’ll feel the sun again
Till then I’m left to wait
Standing outside the gate
Praying for rain and only myself to blame